Last night we made it to the Steve Curtis Chapman concert. When we were getting ready J.J. came into the bathroom and told me he really didn't want to go to the babysitters house. I reminded him that they had a little girl his age. His response to that was..."They won't have any boy toys." I suggested he load up his Jay Jay the Jet Plane suitcase with the boy toys he thought he could share. That got his mind off of where he was going...he had a mission to complete!!
The family that watched J.J. have a 16 yr. old daughter that's had diabetes since she was three. It didn't take us long to show them our log, and our "routine". They were a little rusty on our treatment plan since their daughter has been on the pump for 9 years, but they grasped it pretty quick. I felt comfortable they would know how to handle anything that came up. When we picked him up after the concert he said the dad was "fast at shots"...which means he did really good!! He had a fun time and says he won't mind going back.
The concert itself was bittersweet. I was happy to be there, but hard to release the tension. I cried a lot. Remembering the past, and wondering what the future will hold. The theme of the concert is "LIVE IN THIS MOMENT"....just what it says....so it was a reminder for me to live in the here and now..."forgetting what is behind and pressing forward"....a reminder to actually LIVE.....and a reminder to be sold out for Christ.
One of his songs is a tear jerker....it's called "Cinderella".... it's basically about how fast our kids grow up and to buy up the time, not miss any opportunities with them. Before he performed the song he explained what led him to write the song....he was busy writing songs, trying to meet deadlines, etc....and was trying to get his daughters ready for bed.....baths, bedtimes stories, prayers etc.....and how frustrated and impatient he was with them....he finally gets them in bed and sits down to write and realized how fast time flies....his oldest daughter is already off to college and out of the home. The very beginning of the song just got to me....about how his daughter doesn't have a care in the world while he wears the weight of the world on his shoulders....that's how I feel sometimes. J.J. just goes on being a kid while I bear the weight of this disease.